New Week

This last week was full of tons of emotions, good news, bad news... more than I could handle. As some of you know, I lost my last pregnancy a few months ago. Since then, Tom and I had decided to get pregnant again as soon as the doctors said it was OK. After a frustrating doctors appt this last week, we have decided to put more babies on hold for now. I was so happy about my decision to wait and just get my body healthy. Then I found out two of my sisters are pregnant and only a couple weeks apart from each other! I am so excited and happy for both of them. However, it reminded me that I am not pregnant anymore and I don't have a baby either. It was weird. My family also got some other bad news about a sister that was a total shock to me. It was just a hard week. Lately I have been battling with just being happy and counting my blessings. I have been focusing so much on the negatives. I am committing myself to try harder this week. I have been talking a lot to a new friend who has given me a lot of guidance and advice. She has told me to focus on the truths. Satan is very good at filling my head with lies, that make me feel depressed and inadequate. So... Here are some truths:


I am blessed
I have a wonderful husband and family
My mothers death was an accident and was no body's fault (especially God's)
My mother loves me very much
I will see her again
I love Jesus
Jesus loves me
Trials allow people to grow
My family wants me to be happy and to heal
I can be happy if I choose to be
My mother wants me to be happy

Fun Photos

I was recently going through some old pictures on my computer and found these. They are a few of my favorites. I hadn't realized how fast the boys have grown. They are so big and I wonder where the time has gone. This picture is when Isaac was into his cowboy stage. He loved those boots. I remember he would insist on wearing them to the store, with his sandals. It may sound weird, but he would wear one sandal on one foot and a boot on the other. You should have seen some of the looks I got:)

Best buds then and best buds now!

"Lap-time" with daddy. I remember when I was little and my mom would insist on "lap time". If we were ever hurt or sad, we would get lap time. It was a special treat. It's one thing from my mom that I've passed onto my kids:)

Another picture of Isaac in his cowboy boots. Isn't it the cutest thing though? Cowboy boots and undies.

I cherish this picture I got of Benjamin with Grandma Tannie. This was about a week before she died. I know that Ben will not remember her, but I'm glad they were here on earth together for a short time. Grandma was 98 when she died and loved life. She is now reunited with her loving husband and sisters and my dear mother. What a reunion! Just thought I would share some random pictures since I have nothing to blog about right now and it needs updated.

Silly Isaac Story

Isaac has been talking about my mom a lot lately. I don't know why. Sometimes I like it and sometimes it just annoys me. He is a sweetheart and I know he has good intentions. We were leaving the house this morning to go to the grocery store and Isaac yelled "MOM, MOM, COME FAST!". I rushed over thinking Ben had gotten outside and something was wrong. He found a card taped to the door. He said, "look, mom... Grandma Suzy sent you a card". So I opened it and read it. It was a thank you card for a funeral I sang at last week. I tried explaining that Grandma Suzy doesn't live here anymore and that she was not the one to leave the card. I should have just let him believe it and ended it right there. Then he argued back saying, "Yah huh, then what about the flowers?" There were some new flowers growing on the bush outside our door. It was so sweet how he innocently believed that this was all because Grandma Suzy was thinking about us and wanted to give us a card and some flowers. I just hugged him so tight and started crying. He said "sorry I made your feeling owie mom." It made me so thankful for him and realize that I am doing a good job of not letting him forget mom. He's a little worm, but I love him so much. Love you guys.

Ben's Bad Day!

Poor little Benjamin had the roughest day. I always feel so bad for them when they have bad days. Anyway, Ben's day started off with some fun playtime out front. Both boys were having the best time riding their bikes and just being crazy boys. Ben ditched the bike after a few minutes and was just running around like a chicken with it's head cut off! Then it happened, he tripped in the street and scarped his knee, elbow and toes:(

So I brought them inside and cuddled with him for a while. I gave him some Motrin and then Tom put both boys in the bath. They have some fun soap that they got from the Easter Bunny. However, the Easter Bunny was not paying attention and did NOT get TEAR FREE. Tom said he had soap all over his hands and created a lather around his eyes. Yup, sure enough he got tons of soap in his eyes. I let him cry and cry, thinking this would flush the soap out, and it did.

Then as we were drying them off and getting them dressed for bed, Ben got into my jewelry box. It's taller than he is and he just loves getting in all the drawers. He know he CAN NOT touch it, but of coarse he does. The lid slammed down on his little thumb and he couldn't get it out. By the time we heard his cry and got over to help him, his thumb was pretty banged up and sore:(.

Poor guy, three ouchies in one day is a lot for a 2 1/2 year old to handle. The only good thing that comes from it is more cuddle time with me. I know I'm selfish. He is now comfy in his bed and hopefully fast asleep. I will definitely keep my ears open for more screams tonight, just in case:)

Happy Birthday To Me!

My friends and I used my birthday as an excuse to have a party at work. It makes a long night super fun when we have food out and take pictures! This is Carla and Vicki. This was on Saturday. No worries, I didn't have to work on my birthday:)

Sorry, these pictures are kind of out of order. This is Vicki and Robin. They are my very good friends from work. They took me out to lunch for my birthday today and we had the funnest time.

Here's all of us. Vicki, Robin, Anne, and me. I have the best friends and they have really been so supportive of me. Sometimes I feel as if Vicki is my second mom. She has a son that's my age too. They have been a huge help to me with the grieving of my mom, my back surgery, the loss of my pregnancy, the whole shebang. Thanks guys, you're awesome.

Here's another picture from work. This is how we spend our nights... getting massages from Vicki:) This is Mindy, my other super good friend.

Becca made me dinner this year for my birthday. She is the sweetest sister and friend. We celebrated it a day early since she had to leave for girls camp today. She made me yummy homemade potato soup and a pink cake! You all know how much I love pink.
Here is the pink blanket she made for me.
And here's the super yummy cake.
Here's all the kids together. They managed to stop wrestling with each other for 5 seconds so I could get this picture. It's not perfect, but it's as good as it's gonna get. Hope you like it dad. Becca really made me feel loved by all the effort she put in for my birthday. Thanks sis, I love you tons.