Happy Birthday Mom

As some of you may know, today is my mom's birthday. What a hard day, but also a good one. It gave me a chance to stop and think about mom. My life is just so crazy and It was nice to have a day just for her. I tend to just simple avoid thinking about her because it is just too painful. I feel like a terrible daughter sometimes. It's like I owe it to her to think about her every second of everyday. I just can't. I decided today that I would try and focus on only the good thoughts and memories I have of her and not think about the accident and that horrible day. These are the flowers that my mom-in-law helped me make for her headstone. I think they look so nice. Ray, Becca and I all went to the cemetary to be with her on her birthday. We all stood around her headstone and shared our favorite memories of her and it brought smiles to our faces. She was a wonderful example to me and all of her other children. She was a wonderful mother, wife, sister, and friend. I miss her everday, but I know that she is where she needs to be. Heavenly Father has a divine plan for all of us. I try to keep this in mind when I am so depressed and just want to talk to her. I would give anything to hug her this very minute. Mom's always seem to make everything better. They can heal any little pain. I just wish there was someway to let her know how much I love her. I think that is one of the things that hurts the most is that I can't tell her that I love her so much and miss her everyday. Atleast all of you can know of my love for her. I was not always a good daughter to her, but she was always a good mom. I will love her and miss her forever. Happy Birthday Mom, I love you.