Sunday, June 14, 2009

New Week

This last week was full of tons of emotions, good news, bad news... more than I could handle. As some of you know, I lost my last pregnancy a few months ago. Since then, Tom and I had decided to get pregnant again as soon as the doctors said it was OK. After a frustrating doctors appt this last week, we have decided to put more babies on hold for now. I was so happy about my decision to wait and just get my body healthy. Then I found out two of my sisters are pregnant and only a couple weeks apart from each other! I am so excited and happy for both of them. However, it reminded me that I am not pregnant anymore and I don't have a baby either. It was weird. My family also got some other bad news about a sister that was a total shock to me. It was just a hard week. Lately I have been battling with just being happy and counting my blessings. I have been focusing so much on the negatives. I am committing myself to try harder this week. I have been talking a lot to a new friend who has given me a lot of guidance and advice. She has told me to focus on the truths. Satan is very good at filling my head with lies, that make me feel depressed and inadequate. So... Here are some truths:


I am blessed
I have a wonderful husband and family
My mothers death was an accident and was no body's fault (especially God's)
My mother loves me very much
I will see her again
I love Jesus
Jesus loves me
Trials allow people to grow
My family wants me to be happy and to heal
I can be happy if I choose to be
My mother wants me to be happy

4 comments:

mom2cherreys said...

We had some talks in church on this topic. It was all about Really finding your blessings, not just counting the ones you have had in the past. There are so many trials and tribulations in everyday life, some have more than others, but if you really look forward you can see that each one can and WILL turn into another blessing. Just remember that you are not alone, you not only have your heavenly father to talk to, but a wonderful family and some pretty great friends! WE LOVE YOU STACEY!

Liz said...

Trials are hard, but one thing I do know about you is that you are a very strong daughter of god. Hang in there your doing great!

Mama's Makin's said...

sorry to hear. But I am glad that you are looking at the sunny side of life. I lost a pregnancy too. And it was hard with so man people having babies around me. But I can testify that the Lord knows best. Life was different but good. It worked out for the best. The Lord really does know best! He knows us super well. And it will work out for you. And you will look back and see His hand guiding you through it all.

Sara Randall said...

Stacey-

I am sorry. I didnt know about your pregnancy. I can only imagine how difficult that must be. I hope that everything is well with you and your family and I will pray for you guys. Best wishes!